This is a serialized story; for links to previous installments, go to the end of the post.
Passages
opened and we rushed off from the meeting pell-mell to a
panoply of experiences! I followed,
though I did not want to, drawn, pulled in, compelled in the way one looks at
an accident or perhaps the way one might walk downstairs, late at night,
cautiously, one’s heart beating in one’s throat, palpitating, telling oneself
over and over that it was nothing, just the cat, but not believing it, anyway.
Interesting that I did not at that time realize that
I had never walked down any stairs at night, had never had a heart to
beat. Interesting that I did not realize
the change that had been coming over us at that time.
We rushed, after Diana, towards nowhere and
everywhere, there being nowhere to go in the abstract, only suddenly there was a where to go, there, in that place
that had never had places, and we were able to move physically from
Here
To
Here
To
Here
And even
There
And we moved without moving in that place without
places, but we also moved the way real things do: we becoming real as Diana
became less so, maybe? Our existences
Existence!
X-istence!
Becoming more alike each other's and less like they
had been.
In an instant or an eon, we were there
Here
We were here.
The cottage, where Diana’s sister lived. We were
there.
It was nighttime.
It was dark.
So dark that the room appeared an inkblot, and the
only smudge in the complete obscurity before us was the small window through
which shone the faint light of a moonless sky clouded over. So dim it was that
we could make out nothing in the room, other than that the room existed.
Diana’s mad sister slept, and in her sleep was
absolutely motionless, or so it seemed at least in the dark.
I, myself, marveled that I could be here, at all – here, here! HERE! –
without anyone calling on me. I had not gone through the dance, I had not been
summoned, I had not been pulled out of a dreamless dream into an unreal
reality. In the past, I had been unable to make this trip on my own volition,
but now was here.
Here. In the dark, where a madwoman slept.
“She is there, sleeping,” Diana told us, those of us
who had come with her, who after hearing her story had decided to help her find
David, had believed that David must
still exist somewhere.
We knew that, of course. We could sense her sister’s
presence, even though we could not see her. And something more: standing there,
I was aware of the many times I had been called to her bidding, the words we
had helped her write down, the poetry she had completed and then hidden
away. I could look around the room in
the dark and see the spots, without seeing, knowing they were there: those
scraps of paper on which we had helped her write her delusions.
Or were they delusions?
If nothing is something and something nothing, if
sense is nonsense and nonsense is sense, if the existence of one thing requires
the existence of all things, then wouldn’t the existence of reality mean that
there must be dreams?
And would it not then be a matter of perspective,
which is which?
“Shall I wake her?” Diana asked us.
We murmured, unsure enough of this new way that we
were not willing to lead, we who had always followed.
“I am awake,” came the sister’s voice from the obsidian shadows.
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Each letter has had a turn to talk. Here's links to all of them. They're best, probably, if read in order but each is also more or less independent and they can be read in any order and result in the same story.
A's story is here and B's here. C talks here. Here is D. E's version of events was here. F was here. Also, G, H spokehere. Then I, then J . Click here for k, and here for L.
Then there's M's story, here,
Then N. And O
Then there's M's story, here,
Then N. And O
3 comments:
So not only are there more realities, the letters and Diana can now move among them. Interesting stuff.
And, yes, sometimes I've had dreams that seemed more real than anything I've lived.
"I've dreamt in my life dreams that have stayed with me ever after, and changed my ideas; they've gone through and through me, like wine through water, and altered the colour of my mind."
~Emily Bronte
You've got to be really good to pull out an Emily Bronte quote like that. Well played.
I think the sister...
oh, well, I'll wait and see.
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